Lonely Depression

Lonely depression

This torment depression is taking over my life
At the rate things are going, I’ll never have a life
For I am always feeling sad and blue
And I just don’t know what to do
If I am not feeling sad
I’m constantly mad
Mad at what I’m not so sure
I just wish I had the cure
A cure to make all of this go away
So the sun could shine another day
I wish I could feel the sun beaming down
But I feel like I’m stuck in the cold hard ground
I wish I knew what caused this to happen to me
I remember the days of being happy and carefree
Those days are nowhere to be found
Trust me, I’ve been looking around
I I feel like crying all day long
Like I’m constantly doing wrong
What did I do to deserve this heartfelt pain?
It’s always loss and never gain
I see myself falling more and more every day
Emotions being pulled, every single way
When did this start? And when will it end?
Because all I want to do is mend
I want to be the old me
Not this mess you see
I want to be giggly, cute, and fun
I want to jump, run, and skip in the sun
I want to go places and be a good friend
I don’t want this to be the end
Lord, please just send me a sign
So that I know everything will be fine.

~Gentle Soul~

It's the Heart

It’s the heart

IT KNOWS what I’m searching for

It knows who I love to

It never breaks the secrets

Until the day comes

It is pure and virtue

There is no black spot

There is no anger, no regret

It is eccentric, has no sorrows

Its lonesome will never be taken away

No one can stop its lust

It can do what it wanted

Because it is the heart

Heart

Go and search what you’re searching for

Go and love who you want to love

Go, be secrecy, full of lonesome.

~Gentle Soul~

Emotionless...

Emotionless

Am I destined to bea loner in this reality?

No nook nor cranny to call home,

No beacon of light to guide me,

No sweet memories for remembrance.

Just an empty shell remains today

An emptiness ... overwhelming.

Try as I could to fill it,

Somehow ... something's still amiss,

Emotion ... that's it, the missing piece

I'm emotionless ... what can I say?

~~Gentle Soul~~

The Haunted Lighthouse...

The Haunted Lighthouse

Looming in the distance

Tall and rising high

Far across the river

Eerily touching the sky.

As old folks tell its tale

A tale so old as time

Set with winds and gales

On one stormy night.

T’was told it was a romance

A love the father scorned

Between his daughter, a dashing young man

Their hearts were nearly torn.

The boy had loved his lady

Father threw him out

But nothing could be done, they loved already

Forbidden love pursued.

When Father left for town

The damsel rushed to row

The boat, she knew, led to the place

The lighthouse she did go.

Her suitor watched her go

Through the glassy window

He ran and ran; he ran so sail

Amidst the rain and gales.

But fate held its upper hand

Lightning struck the man

He screamed and cried

And fell and died

And lat still all the time.

The girl rushed out with vigor

To meet her suitor’s hands

But she saw his lifeless figure

And shock killed her at once.

Then the bats all flew around

Until the two were found

Their hands were clasped; locked in grip

Their bodies intertwined.

Up till this very day

The bats have never been away

The lover’s voice are always heard

Their very final words.

~~Gentle Soul~~

October Wind...

October Wind

October... it was drizzling outside the window,
October...
the falling leaves, the melancholy hearts,
How I hoped to find you, but I never did,
How I hoped that you would be waiting, but you never did,
For we are from two totally different worlds, separated by an illusive barrier,
A barrier constructed from anger and love,
a barrier yielded by you and I,
The days have passed by, as the wind,
never returning, forever gone,
So let the October wind blow through me,
blow through my empty heart,
Searching, searching, searching, searching,
searching for you.
Let the October wind blow through me,
blow through my broken heart,
Lifting, lifting, lifting, lifting,
lifting me to the sky above.

~~Gentle Soul~~

Last Lament Of A French Fry...

Last Lament Of A French Fry

At the golden arches
our last stand.
Standing side by side,
awaiting our fates.
Never give up,
never surrender
we will go on fighting
till our last member
Fellows down,
despair looms,
as rows of pearly enemies
send us to our doom.
One by one,
till the last member,
Never give up,
never surrender.
I take a vow as I wait my turn,
though you eat me,
I will make your stomach churn!!!

~~Gentle Soul~~

Raven In The Grey Winter...

Raven in the grey winter

In the cold night of winter

Somewhere in December

When the breezy wind moves about

As though it was blown by sleepy

Winter Cloud

As dark as it may be

Shadows of dead trees can be seen

Branches swing from left to right

Like a hundred hands reaching toward the sky for light

A creature that haunts the night

Is sometimes caught in sight

Its eyes glow so red

Those who look? will meet their fate

She rests weakly on a branch

Her body is telling her she’s drenched

Each tear that flows from her eyes

Sparkles with sadness and lies

The curse whispers through the shadows

Crying out soft miserable woes

It crawls and creeps slowly around her

Like a devil’s toddler

She spreads her wings to fly

Only to fall deeper into the cries

She struggles in the shadow of death

She’s about to lose her breath

In the grey winter of misery

Making the sky feel sorrow and sorry

The creature weeps

Because the curse lives forever

~~Gentle Soul~~

Sick...

Sick

My head is pounding

My blood is rushing

My palms are all sweaty

And everything is just nasty

I’m sick, I’m sick, I’m really, really sick

Now, even minor things make me tick

I’m sick of my life, sick of my job

Why won’t anyone listen to me?

Why doesn’t anyone understand me?

Why don’t they step into my shoes and see

That something is certainly wrong with me

Nobody cares, nobody minds

They can’t afford to set aside their precious time

Not even for me, a pitiful soul in need

Nowadays, nobody bothers with a simple good deed

So, here I am, all alone

I’m surprised I haven’t turned into a stone

Being contained within four blank walls

One could get lonely and stiff after a while

Files and documents are everywhere

I have started my journey but it ends nowhere

I know I left my brain somewhere

But when I need it, it’s just not there

WHOOSH! My friends’ bullet trains shoot past

Look at them, they are sure going fast

I’m still huffing and puffing behind

Hoping to catch up with them in time

The climb towards success is steep

But I’m steadily traveling in my faithful jeep

Strength, encouragement and love is all I need

One day, I’m sure I’ll be at the lead

~~Gentle Soul~~

I Don't Believe...

I don’t believe

I used to believe there was so much inside me

That was bursting to come out

To see the worldI used to believe

That I could make a difference

To someone

Somewhere

Sometime

I used to believe that someone would appreciate me

The way I would appreciate him

That what was inside of me

Would shine

The way others shined on me

I used to think that I could start anew

A clean slateWherever I went

Far away where no one knew

Me and my past

I used to think I could create a new face

And that people could see past it

And look inside my heart

My mindI tried so hard

To be someone else

To be the people around me

And always failedBut yet being myself

Will never be enough

I will never shineJust being me.

~~Gentle Soul~~

Pain

Pain

If birds can fly, then so will I,

I will soar up to the sky,

Search for you,

So that I can ask you why

Who am I?

The toy of fate or the prey of time?

Why am I always unlucky?

A friend to loneliness, sadness, and darkness?

Whenever I try to walk along to victory,

I only end up with get the name "Loser",

What is the prize that life has given to me?

Nothing but just the pain.

~~Gentle Soul~~

I am only Human

I am only Human

MOST people don’t know it

But deep inside one’s eyes

Lies a dark black pit

Of sorrow and grief

Yet as I lay on my bed

I think of the sad eye

That keeps appearing in my mind

But no answers come to me

I try to help the person in pain

Yet nothing is gained

I stare dumfounded against the darkness

Still no light appears through the blindness

I felt pressured

Like the world was turning around

It’s as if I had to find a cure

For everything has to be found

People come to me

With broken hearts and souls

Expecting me to be a source of comfort

While inside, I weep along

I know not what to do

It’s not like I can do anything

I feel like telling them

I can’t give them all the answers

But there is one person who can

And that is the person in heaven

who consoled me when I am down

And that is my Father in heaven

With that I feel blessed

I am a human

I may have failed

But it is all in the plan because I am only human

~~Gentle Soul~~

The Prayer

The Prayer

Lord, bless me to have peace within my heart

Help me make each day a beautiful start

Help me understand how I can make a difference

And the raison d’etre of my existence

Bless me with the courage to voice what’s right

In this world where reality does bite

Within the range of possibilities that I can change

Bless me with the will to do so for the better

And for those things that I can’t change

Help me to gracefully accept and not be bitter

For I trust in You that You have Your reasons

As mysterious that I won’t be able to comprehend

I believe You will show me why in another season

When the time is right, the explanation

You will sendBless me with the wisdom to then understand

As there is no highway to heaven on earth

Guide me in this world in each of my steps

Before I take my last breath.

~~Gentle Soul~~

The little girl’s tears

The freezing air wisping past me,

The glassy mirror judges me

My dark eyes search for imperfection

What do you see in my reflection?

Don’t you know the one mistake that defines you?

One wrong step and it will break you

How I wish I could run and not be weary

Live my teenage life and not worry.

Stars in the water shine distant and late

Watching them ripple as I listen and wait

Waiting for trust and affection

To see another beside my own reflection.

The little girl cries now

But the misery is very much temporary

I’ll awake tomorrow

And feel a lot less sorry.

Tears elucidate my emotions

But my sweetest smiles will surface

Between the mirrors I see no limitation

Someday you’ll see my true reflection.

~~Gentle Soul~~